Back at Johnny V’s
Had a really great show last night at Johnny V’s. It was my first time singing, and so it was really great that we got to have a good time. I’m really grateful for everyone who came out to support us.
The best part of the show was hanging around afterward meeting the guys in the other bands. NotForNothing played a cool set mixing a female lead vocal and rap. They had a nice groove. BellaBella tore up the house for the closer with absolutely solid bass lines and a supercharged vocals.
I have so many thoughts about the show and how it went:
- The quality of the music wasnt the best and there were a few train wrecks, but I think we made up for it by having a good time. Would be good to practice more.
- Having the props to mess around with before the show was a great idea, mostly because it kept me distracted and kept me from getting nervous. It also gave people a reason to talk to us.
- The bands after us really got more movement with a little funk sound. I think we should try to incorporate this into some songs.
- Had some feedback with the vocal fx/mic combo which was a little annoying, but tolerable.
- I really think that singing three songs is close to the right number for now. John and John’s vocals were pretty good, and it’s just good to mix it up a little.
The gift
Above all the biggest difference in this show was that I wasn’t that nervous because I wasn’t so worried about trying to impress everyone. Last year I was so new at this that I wanted everything to be perfect so people would be into the performance because I wanted them to like me. I think the biggest difference is that this year I have Anne, and she loves me already, so it doesn’t really matter what other people think. That kind of support is so empowering and so rare that I feel like I’m really lucky. Thanks so much baby - I love you!!! (just in case you ever read this 
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The Focus of a Show
There’s actually a really valuable lesson here for all of life. I started playing music because music tapped into all of these feelings that were buried inside me, and it was a way to connect with the part of my self that didn’t really have a voice. The songs that came out of that period were a sort of coming out - me saying what I couldn’t really say, and a lot of the material was aggressive and dark. All the songs we’re like “hey, look at me, I’m so [sad/angry/frustrated]“. It’s really just a way to get attention.
I don’t really feel this way about life anymore, I feel like I’m finally figuring things out because of Anne. One of the great things about being loved is that I can change the direction of the love arrow. Instead of making the show about trying to get love and attention from people at the show, I can make it about sharing the gift of love that I’ve been given. How awesome is that?!!!
So now the goal for me is to see if we can get people to let loose and dance.
(Photos courtesy of Flavian Vasile.)