Irritants
I’m up again late after too much coffee, but I took the time to pay attention to my body a little more. It’s strange that it’s taken me so many decades to develop a sense of self awareness. I hope this ability will keep developing over time. Someday it might be possible to develop the kind of sophistication in vocabulary for feelings that we have for foods.
For example, lying in bed I felt tired from a long day, but I could feel a kind of buzzing in my veins as though they were actively trying to flush something from my system. I wonder if caffeine stimulates the body in the same way that a chili pepper arouses the taste buds - the chemicals send your metabolism a signal that it needs to get busy and get rid of the irritant.
Lately I’ve been feeling jumpy and stressed out because work feels like it could become a missed opportunity or at worst a dead-end. My energy is very scattered and while things are positive, I don’t feel like things are going well. It’s as if summer is slipping away.